It is really amazing how life twists and turns. If you had told me 6 months ago that I would be working at TopSpeed and I would be ok being/living single, I would have called you a f-ing liar! Yet here I am, contrary to everything I believed with every fiber of my being. On top of it all, I am happy. Its not false happiness either. Well what do I know? I just stated everything I knew to be true, wasn't. Regardless, I am happy.
Work wise I have been so busy I don't know what to do with myself. Its good busy, everyday I am here, open to close. So far I don't mind the saturdays. I got spoiled the first couple weeks with the insane amount of hours I logged. Now anything less and I start putting pressure on myself to step it up. The fire inside has been renewed. I want to prove myself more now than ever.
Socially I have realized that I am ok being alone. I have made it to this point where I am not so utterly lonely. It was rough. I really struggled with it for months. On top of my other problems I was having, just made it worse. I was really forcing it. Everyone always says " Its when you aren't looking, thats when you find someone" blah blah blah. No. You are wrong. Its when you get to the realization that "Hey, you like me or you don't. If you do, cool, its on. If you don't, peace, there are about 50 million others waiting to find out what this is all about." Or you get lucky and find someone during the whole "finding yourself" period, don't realize it, and then figure out you had an answer the whole time-dumbass.
For me, I am not trying to force anything. Socially or professionally. I know I have the goods for success. I have to keep doing what I do, maybe just a little more assertively. Modest confidence I guess is the best way I can describe it.
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